My Golden Ticket
Someone recently asked me, “If you had a golden ticket to cash-in five years from now to get anything you wanted, what would it be?”
Thinking of just one golden ticket seems so hard! But I loved this activity. My first thought was love. Then time. And then 50 million dollars! Hehe 😁
In my thoughts about time and love I uncovered something else to use my ticket on.
I want time to see more smiles from my kids, really see them. Time to enjoy moments, really enjoy them, without being rushed. Time to experience without thinking about anything else. Time to be totally present.
Meditation helps me get there, but I know I have more growth until I’m completely there. And then there’s the growth to become comfortable becoming the person I want to be. The mom I want to be. The wife I want to be. The sister I want to be. The financial freedom I want to have. The body I want to have. The experiences I want my kids to have. Etc…etc…etc…
And so, my golden ticket? Being at peace with becoming. Because I’m never there. Because “there” is a place that doesn’t exist. It doesn’t exist but feels as if it does because I think about it so much. Not only in what I want it to be, future thoughts. But in what I did that takes away from it, the anxieties of the past.
And in this striving, it can be stressful. Especially if you imagine that there is a place to be, there is a final destination of complete. But, I’m never done. I realize that my goals can only be met for a moment.
So peace with becoming and changing. Peace with just being who I am in this moment. Peace with what I’m doing now. Peace that what I’m doing now is enough. Peace that who I am is enough. So I can really enjoy life.
If I can be comfortable becoming, I can enjoy the juicyness of the present. No longer thinking about the past or the future.
That’s my golden ticket. Peace becoming. Peace knowing in this moment, being me, that is enough.
